Thursday, March 6, 2014

"Where have I been??

Hi guys!!! Its been a while since I have last posted and I wanna apologize for that. Let me also say Merry Late Christmas, News Years and all that other good stuff.  Every time I think I'm gonna do better at blogging that doesn't happen! You ladies have noooo idea of how my life has been spiraling what seems like outta control. I wanna update you all and hope that I can make is short bc I'm just over everything(not really) Well you know I had to move outta my house bc the owner let the house go in foreclosure..I was tooo sad and hurt about that...So fast forward I moved to a cute little house that was soo far from everyone and it really wasn't the best area, but I was scared and thought that change would be good for me... I actually fell in love with the house after much prayer and looking at the house over 5xs. I moved to this little cottage in May of 2013.. and as of December 2013 I was ready to move out of it!!! 

Read about all my moves in my previous blogs..

Christmas night (12/25/2013)my house was broken into.. Luckily no one was home. I was a little shook up but I was really ok.. I figured OKAY.. I have gotten my initiation and I should be good from here..  (they were trying to steal my 55"inch TV) So here I am headed to work (12/29/2013) waiting for my dad to come and stay with my daughter while I go to work. He was late and was like he was almost there. I left the house bc I had bn dealing with BS from my job already. Well as soon as I got to work I got a call from the neighbor saying that my house was broken into and that my child had ran out the house down the street to her house!! I almost lost my mind!! like what!! again??????????? 4 days later and they come back!!! this TV is seriously about to be the death of me!!! 

I handle everything with the authorities and send my child off to family. I stayed behind to man my house. So now my house is broken into 2xs and my job is still trippn!! I literally went HAM (but i was professional with it tho) on them bc they called me demanding that I be to work the next day bc I had an unemployment hearing to complete concerning a former employee... Like seriously WTF!!! do they not realize what has just happened to me and my child.. no courtesy or concern but they acted like they cared so much for me while I ran my office for a month and a half, 14hour days just 2 months prior!!! SMH!!! some ppl!! So a day or 2 later (Jan 3,2014) my job then lays me off work bc they claim it  was lack of work.. OKAY whatever!! I'll take that bc I was sooo sicka them and I wanted to find another job any ways!!! They paid me severance pay and granted me unemployment...Now I'm outta work and waiting to find somewhere to live. I get the apartment but its weeks for an upstairs apt is available. (my daughter said she felt safe if we were upstairs and I understood that) Now we are waiting to move into the apt on Feb 11,2014.. I started moving on that day. We were do to have bad weather the next day(Snow Storm) I lost power and the house I was moving from so we went and stayed at the apartment. The next day I went back to the house to get more of our things and to check on the house and to my suprise they had broken in for the 3rd time!!! SMDH!!! By now im pissed and literally crying inside bc I'm like 2014 cant be like this!!!!! Like what have I done to deserve this!!!???

Fast forward a little more... I'm now in my apt..980sqft from1200sqft... talking about tight!!! I'm 99% done with putting things away. I just had to stop this week bc I was really feeling depressed and mentally and emotionally drained!! I want soo much more for my life and I just dont understand what is going on and why and I having such hardship. Like really what have I done!!?? 
I know GOD does not give us more than we can handle etc etc.. but I'm soooo tired and stressed out! I have to keep my FAITH and know that THIS TOO SHALL PASS!!!

Today my daughter had her 13yr old well check up today and I decided I would try to get my groove back and start blogging again..... I really want to start up a YouTube channel on My Life my Struggle.. Literally

Without  anymore delays here are a few pics from taday

my first time ever doing flexi rods on my hair..

With all my issues this week.. I treated myself to get my nails done and I got a muuuuch needed massage!! Now I may can see some light at the end of this tunnel!!

Thanks for listening and letting me share "My Life Struggles"